In my 23 odd years of life in this planet, little have I felt the need to investigate on the existence of a supreme power. In the early days of my childhood, I had seen my parents thronging temples, visiting gurus, et al. With each passing day they seemed to get tired of the drill. In simple words, they realized “God is within you, why search elsewhere” and I grew up to believe the same!
When I was a child, I asked what GOD meant. I had always thought it was an abbreviation of sorts. And to make me understand in that tender age, the answer I got was quite simple. GOD meant Generator, Operator and Destroyer, which made me all the more curious and I shot back with yet another question. “If GOD is good, and does good to us, why would He be a destroyer?” I had also once asked “How does God look?” And all I got was “Go look in the pooja room. Is that convincing enough?” Though my little mind bore umpteen questions which invited barely satisfying answers, I tagged along to the temples, uttering those few prayers I knew, dabbing vermilion on my forehead with great pride as if it were a crown.
Now, when am quizzed about my idea of God, I stand perplexed as I have no answers. I believe there is an unfathomable interconnection between science and spirituality, both of which are definitely not mutually exclusive, and explaining the unknown is indeed complex and beyond my ability. Am I an atheist? Am I a theist? An agnostic? A spiritualist? I really do not know. In my quest for knowing the unknown, I shall find the same!
When I was a child, I asked what GOD meant. I had always thought it was an abbreviation of sorts. And to make me understand in that tender age, the answer I got was quite simple. GOD meant Generator, Operator and Destroyer, which made me all the more curious and I shot back with yet another question. “If GOD is good, and does good to us, why would He be a destroyer?” I had also once asked “How does God look?” And all I got was “Go look in the pooja room. Is that convincing enough?” Though my little mind bore umpteen questions which invited barely satisfying answers, I tagged along to the temples, uttering those few prayers I knew, dabbing vermilion on my forehead with great pride as if it were a crown.
Now, when am quizzed about my idea of God, I stand perplexed as I have no answers. I believe there is an unfathomable interconnection between science and spirituality, both of which are definitely not mutually exclusive, and explaining the unknown is indeed complex and beyond my ability. Am I an atheist? Am I a theist? An agnostic? A spiritualist? I really do not know. In my quest for knowing the unknown, I shall find the same!
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